okay i am finally back... i havent been gone as long as i thought i would be, but you must know that if you message me i may not be able to reply for awhile

I am starting to calm down now...i know people go threw this all the time, but my dads been in jail since i was in elementry school and meh paw-paw was like meh dad


I SORRY i left w/out messaging i kno i should talk to you guys...hopefully you'll still be my friend??

Thank all of you, you are true friends:

:~DreemDancer: :~littlemissfox: :~luccide: :~Adrenaline1379: :electrana: and :[CagedBird]: (sorry if i messed it up)

thank you for feeling bad for me i dun deserve it

I am sorry to all of you who i have not spoken too in a long time. you see in late november my grandfather died and i went insane. i know grandfathers dont mean much to some people but i dont have a dad so he was the closest i could get. it was not just the fact that he was dead but i was left alone to pull his dead body out of our van. so yes i went a little loco and i was sent to major counciling and i never really got onto my computer. i tried messaging some people and i even replied on my homepage. i am very sorry to all of you but i still have some therapy to go to so i may have to leave deviantart. this will be my last journal when my councilings done i may comeback though i will probably use a different name thing....so until then farewell and sorry

The anime con i've been talking about is next month and i dont kno who i should be


I'M TOOO FAT TO BE ALOT OF PEOPLE SO I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!nYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

dOES ANYBODY HAVE ANY IDEA who i should be??





BESIDES CHOJI!!!!!!! please help meh get an idea

Niyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i Is soo happy!! (even though in the last journal i was .......some-what angry) i am now happy even though yall probably dont care i'll tell ya why....... you see i have NEVER!NEVER had a boyfriend b4 and there is this guy named shaun that i have been obsessing over 4 the past 2 yrs. andf well he doesnt no who i am, but i have a friend that has been giving him letters from me to him (so i can get to no him) and she says he realy likes....well my personality at least (still doesnt no who i am though XD) and i am expecting some letters from him CHAAAAAAAAA!!!! I is so happy....... ahhh i love him so much (not in the stalker kinda way) pple are comparing me to Hinata now CHaaaaaaaaaAAAAaaaa!!
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OH AND THANK YOU ALL WHO WATCH ME FOR PUTTING UP WITH ME!!!(I AM THE ANNOYING FAT-ASS FROM HELL)

FUCK!!!! DA (if you have already noticed) Has taken away all of my pictures and now they wont even fucking awnser me!!! They usually just move it to my scraps....which is fine but ThEY fucking deleted it!!!! I cannot even access them on my OWN computer!!!!! i mean seriously what the hell i lost all of my pics!